Tuesday, March 18, 2008

No Kids!

I just called the sub finder. I'm on day 5 of a migraine that started after the accident. Yeah, sure, Soma (muscle relaxer) has been fun to take at times, but conducting choir will just aggravate things.

As a single, all I have to do when I don't want to be around kids is call in sick. It's kind of nice not to have your own. In fact, I'm not sure if I ever want any of my own. Maybe the right guy will someday change my mind.

But I sort of miss my girls. I moved all the boys out of one of my choirs to have all the boys together. Those who stayed I knew were headed to continuation school and eventually were gone. So now it's just girls. We can do really fun repertoire that I can't do with a mixed choir like some songs from Grease and girl group songs from the 50s.

But some of them I just wonder if they're OK. 1 showed up with a bruise on her face, a souvenir from a bad ex-boyfriend. One has a baby and has lost alot of family members this year. Quite a few have really bad family situations. We aren't talking about fights with parents over curfew. We're talking about a 17-year-old taking care of her sister's babies while the sister is in jail for defending her children from an abusive ex. Some things are just unspeakable and they won't tell me anything at all. Some of them I just miss their sweetness and willingness to do whatever is asked. Some I miss their quietness--how is is that they never seem to make a sound except when they sing? Some, I miss their sassiness--don't tell them that, though!! I am missing a little joy without seeing them. Despite all these circumstances, sometimes they sound SOOO good!

I miss some of my other students too, but mostly, I miss my choir girls.